But..I don't want anything but you

Hello Lovelies, Happy New Year!
Seems I haven't blogged in forever, hopefully that will change with the new year!
 I've been doing a lot of work on myself the past few months and a lot on what's changed and the people I need in my life and the ones I don't it has been so eye opening and it's helped a lot. I've taken time away from SL and I've come back...I'm discovering more about myself daily and I'm so proud and so happy to say that the person I am today is the person I want to be. I'm deciding to leave 2016 in the past as well the people who it came with. I'm moving on and i'm getting closure and for that I say "Thank you 2016 but, No thank you" I have so many plans to take my life by storm in the new year starting tomorrow and I can't wait for that to begin!

So without further ado *The blog!*

Xoxo~Addison

Mesh Body Parts:

Mesh Head: Genesis Labs -Gemma
Skin: Genesis Labs - Gemma - Milk Tone

Mesh Body: Slink - Physique Mesh Body

Hands: Slink - Gesture Hands

Feet: Slink: High Feet

Hair:

Doe: Plum (two-tone) - Pastels {99L @Doe or Try Yardsales!}

Outfit:

Lingerie: *TL* romantic nights-lingerie

Accessories:

Heels: #EMPIRE - Anemone

Pose: 

Belle Epoque - Exotic 2

The Heart Wants What It Wants...

Hi Dolls! I was feeling some type of way today so I decided I'd blog about it.. Losing someone is tough..more tough then many can imagine..I have someone in my life who I think about constantly no matter how far I run or try and escape I come back wanting more...My heart wants what it wants but my brain says i'm done and I can't do this anymore...i'm at a loss..no matter where I decide to go some part of me hurts and I know i'm not the only person who struggles with this. Do I give in again? Do I reach out? Do I stay put and live my life? Who Knows...but this is giving me something to think about and I think some of you viewers as well..Till next time loves! 

Xoxo - Addison 

Mesh Body Parts:

Mesh Body: Slink - Physique Mesh Body
Hands: Slink - Gesture Hands
Feet: Slink: Mid Feet
Skin: 7 Deadly s{K}ins -Shine - Apricot {No Longer Available!}

Hair:
*Besom~Madison - Essentials 

Outfit:

Lingerie: 

~Blacklace~ Kindle- Red {No Longer Available!}

Accessories:

Glasses: Mowie. - "Vanessa" Glasses

Wrist Cuffs: KDC/Ai Basic Leather Cuffs

Heels: The Refined - We Aren't In Kansas Anymore Dorthy Heels

Pose: 

Belle Epoque - Exotic 5

Don't You Ever Say...I Just Walked Away...I Will Always Want You

Hi! Dolls, Let me start with: Real life has been crazy! My time online has been sporadic and I feel like i'm constantly running for my life but soon that will come to an end and hopefully i'll be online more often with Blogs!

There's a lot of comments made and thoughts I've had lately over why I'm not in a relationship currently or have a SL family when people I used to be so close to have found that. I've been watching other people I used to be close to be happy and of course it hurts but I wish them all the happiness and well being, just like I'd want them to wish me the same.  This all had me thinking on why that my Sl life is what it is right now  and I've come to the realization that I'm not ready to move on and i'm not at that stage in my life right now where I can hold a stable relationship or long term commitment. I've had so much go on with losing my dad in November and trying to complete all these courses in such a short time that family and relationships just don't hold a candle to all the things I've lost and had no control over in my life.

Now to set things straight just because I've left a family over the years or lost a relationship that doesn't mean I walked away... I will almost always want every single person that I've had to leave to stay in my life but sometimes I can't hold a relationship for two people, God knows I've tried. But at the end of the day I can only control myself not anyone else. I choose to stay positive in this time and ask that if you're my friend or ever cared for me you will also choose to speak of me and wish me the most peaceful moments in a kind way.

I have such a huge love for almost everyone I've encountered here and in rl and If you ever felt hurt by me? Honey my eyes weren't dry either it hurts me too. But I can't hold on forever I've never been nothing less then original and baby I can be a wrecking ball.

Mesh Body Parts:

Mesh Body: Maitreya - Lara Mesh Body
Head: Catwa Mesh Head - Annie
Hair: [ SIXTY NINE ] - HAIR 06 - Platinum blonde

Clothes:
Dress: Maitreya *Mint* - Short Jersey Dress
Wedges: Maitreya - Gold Shiki V2 * Black

Pose: 
Belle Epoque - Exotic 2  N/A